"You walk like you are lost."

She was wrong. I was never the ghost. She was—is—a girl made of smoke and figs and locked doors, still standing on that balcony in July 1995, still half-turned away from the lens, waiting for a boy who never learned to say the right thing.

She nodded, as if this were the only honest thing anyone had said all summer. She stubbed out the cigarette and handed me a fig, split open, its flesh pink and wet. "Eat," she said. "My mother says fruit is the only prayer that answers back." That July, the heat was biblical. The cicadas screamed from noon until three, then fell silent as if ashamed of their fervor. We spent afternoons in the cool hollow of her building's stairwell, sitting on the third step, listening to a crackling radio play some forgotten pop song—"Everybody Hurts" by R.E.M., which she translated for me line by line, finding darker meanings in the English.

"Do you believe in ghosts?" she asked.

She told me about the year her father stopped laughing. About the knock on the door at 4 a.m. when she was twelve. About the way a room changes when men in suits ask for documents that don't exist. She told me these things without tears, as if reciting a recipe. Then she would stop, light another cigarette, and say, "But that is not why you came here."

I wanted to say something beautiful, something that would pin her to this moment, to this rooftop, to me. Instead, I said, "That's far."

I never saw Roula again. Twenty years later, I looked her up. The Montreal diner had closed in 2002. A cousin told me she had married a contractor, moved to Florida, then divorced. Another said she had returned to Greece, taught English to refugee children in a camp near Lesvos. A third said she had died—cancer, quick, in 2014. No obituary. No grave I could find.

Later, she took the photograph. I don't remember the camera or the flash. I only remember the way she turned her face slightly away from the lens, as if already half-gone. As if the girl in the white dress was a decoy, and the real Roula had already boarded the plane. August came like a fever. We swam at a rocky beach near Varkiza, where the water was so clear you could see the shadows of fish moving over ancient shards of pottery. She taught me to dive off a concrete pier. I nearly drowned. She pulled me up by the wrist, laughing, and said, "See? You cannot even leave the water properly."

You are a good ghost, American.