The dash, I now know, is the most honest punctuation. It says: I am not a period. I am not a question. I am the place where meaning hesitates, where the body pauses to remember it is made of paper and glue and the crushed wings of extinct butterflies.
I had known Mircea Cărtărescu once, in a dream I mistook for a lecture. He was standing on a podium made of butterfly wings, reading from a book whose pages were slices of his own pancreas. “Theodoros,” he whispered, and the word turned into a goldfinch that flew straight into my left eye. That was how I learned to see backwards: the past was a tunnel of light behind my skull, and the future was a dark, heavy organ pressing against my spine. i--- Mircea Cartarescu Theodoros Pdf
Inside, every book was written in a language that tasted of almonds. The librarian was a man made of wax, melting in slow motion, and he handed me a volume titled I--- . I opened it. The first page was blank except for a single dash. The second page: two dashes. The third: three. By the hundredth page, the dashes had become a forest of horizontal lines, and between them, tiny figures moved—my mother as a child, riding a tricycle made of ribs; my first love, her mouth sewn shut with dental floss; a version of myself who had chosen to become a moth, fluttering against the bare bulb of an abandoned train station. The dash, I now know, is the most honest punctuation